My pesky postpartum hormones

Ever since I made the decision to exclusively pump I also made a decision that after three months I would stop. I over produced the entire time I was pumping and doubling the amount of milk needed for baby. I have a deep freezer full of stored milk. I planned this so that I could continue to feed him my milk after I stopped pumping. Lasting till he was 6 months, which give or take, that’s how far I nursed my girls.

Well the week Max turned four months was when I stopped. I had been getting my body ready I didn’t just go cold turkey. I pumped less and less that third month.

Now it’s kicking in, that mom guilt. The guilt those postpartum hormones give you when you start to ween and they go a little wacko. I know for me it was a great decision to stop pumping. I know I have a back supply of my milk that will at least last till he’s six months old. I also know that I didn’t feel this way when I stopped nursing with the girls. Fun huh? Why is that? I think it’s because as much as I’m happy to be done with engorgement, leaky boobs, lop sided boobs and the sound of a breast pump. This will more then likely be our last baby. I mean a little part of me wants to give Max a playmate since the girls are so much older BUT I also think that’s another side affect of those pesky hormones. 😉